For years, Sara Walsh hosted the Mother's Day edition of ESPN's SportsCenter.
And no one knew how painful it was for someone who had suffered a miscarriage while on-air.
According to Kidspot, the sports reporter and former ESPN anchor recently discussed her struggle with IVF and pregnancy loss — including what it was like to host a Mother's Day special while desperately wishing for a family.
Walsh shared on Instagram:
For as long as I can remember I hosted SportsCenter on Mother's Day, and the last couple years doing that have been personally brutal. An hours-long reminder of everything that had gone wrong.
Among other things, it reminded Walsh of the terrible day when she had a miscarriage on live television. As she wrote on Instagram, it began when she went to Alabama to host a live show:
I arrived in Tuscaloosa almost three months pregnant. I wouldn't return the same way.
While she was reporting live, Walsh began having a miscarriage. Surrounded by screaming sports fans, Walsh tried to hide what she was going through:
The juxtaposition of college kids going nuts behind our set, while I was losing a baby on it, was surreal. I was scared, nobody knew I was pregnant, so I did the show while having a miscarriage. On television.
Even worse, Walsh was alone, miles from her husband, Toronto Blue Jays pitcher Matt Buschmann. She wrote:
My husband had to watch this unfold from more than a thousand miles away, texting me hospital options during commercial breaks.
But that wasn't the end of her difficulties. Walsh would go on to have two more miscarriages.
Desperate to start a family, Walsh embarked on IVF treatments, which meant more procedures, more shots, and more disappointment.
After multiple rounds of IVF, Walsh was left with a bare glimmer of hope. They were able to “salvage” two — and only two — eggs. Walsh wrote:
I refused to even use them for a long time, because I couldn't bear the idea of all hope being gone. I blew off pregnancy tests, scared to know if it worked.
The good news was that it had worked. Walsh was pregnant with twins. But after going through so much pain and disappointment, Walsh was reluctant to announce her pregnancy to the world.
As she wrote on Instagram, Walsh hid her pregnancy while on-air and told very few people she was expecting. They didn't even prepare a nursery:
I spent a third straight football season pregnant, strategically picking out clothes and standing at certain angles, using scripts to hide my stomach. There would be no baby announcement, no shower, we didn't buy a single thing in preparation for the babies, because I wasn't sure they'd show up. We told very few people we were pregnant, and almost no one there were two.
On February 3, Walsh announced the arrival of Hutton and Brees Buschmann just a few days earlier.
She wrote on Instagram about how excited she was to miss the Super Bowl this year, explaining that there was a good reason she hadn't publicly revealed her pregnancy:
There were times we didn't know if we could have a baby. On Monday, we were lucky enough to have two.
This year for Mother's Day, Walsh was at home with her twins, not in front of a camera.
Instead, Walsh shared the photo of her and her two babies, both of whom wore onesies that read “Good Egg.” She explained they were a gift from her mother, who thought the onesies were funny. But for Walsh, they were also a reminder of how hard it had been for her to find a good egg.
Walsh was inspired to share the story of her on-air miscarriage in hopes that it might help someone else going through the same “dark road” of IVF and miscarriage. She concluded:
I wasn't on TV today, and I'm not sure when I will be again, but instead I got to hang with these two good eggs. My ONLY good eggs.
Walsh said she knows how lucky she is.