Ashley Judd was choking back emotion in a new interview as she made her first public comments about the death of her mother, Naomi Judd.
Naomi, 76, took her own life on April 30, one day before she was inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame with her other daughter, Wynonna, as part of the legendary country music group The Judds.
Ashley Judd, an actress, spoke about her motherâs death and the mental illness that slowly conquered her during an interview that aired on âGood Morning America.â
âIâm tasked with an exceedingly difficult task in disclosing the manner of the way my mother chose not to continue to live. And Iâve thought about this so much because once I say it, it cannot be unsaid and so â because we donât want it to be a part of the gossip economy â I will share with you that she used a weapon,â Ashley Judd said.
âMother used a firearm, so thatâs the piece of information that we are very uncomfortable sharing, but understand, weâre in a position that, if we donât say it, someone else is going to.â
Ashley Judd said her mother âknew that she was seen and she was heard in her anguish and that she was walked home. She was walked home.â
âWhen weâre talking about mental illness, itâs very important to be clear and to make the distinction between our loved one and the disease.
âItâs very real, and it is enough to â it lies. Itâs savage and, my mother â our mother â couldnât hang on until she was inducted into the Hall of Fame by her peers,â Ashley said.
She said the disease of mental illness warped how her mother viewed the world and how she viewed herself.
âThat is the level of catastrophe of what was going on inside of her, because the barrier between the regard in which they held her couldnât penetrate into her heart, and the lie that the disease told her was so convincing,â Ashley said.
She said the lie was âthat youâre not enough, that youâre not loved. That youâre not worthy, and I mean her brain hurt. It physically hurt.â
Ashley recalled the day her mother died.
âIt was a mixed day,â she said. âI visit with my mom and Pop every day when Iâm home in Tennessee. So I was at the house visiting, as I am every day, and mom said to me: âWill you stay with me?â
âI said, âOf course I will,â Ashley Judd said.
She then went outside to greet visitors.
âI went upstairs to let her know that the friend was there, and I discovered her. I have both grief and trauma from discovering her,â Ashley said, drawing a curtain on the rest of her emotions.
âMy mother is entitled to her dignity and her privacy, and so there are some things that we would just like to retain as a family,â she said.
Ashley Judd urged anyone who has thought about suicide to reach out for help.
âI want to be very careful when we talk about this today that for anyone who is having those ideas or those impulses, to talk to someone, to share, to be open, to be vulnerable. There is a national suicide hotline,â she said.
This article appeared originally on The Western Journal.