In a soon-to-be-released documentary series focusing on former President Bill Clinton’s affair with then-White House intern Monica Lewinsky, Lewinsky opens up about the moment Clinton referred to her as “that woman” in front of the entire nation.
Lewinsky was 21-years-old at the time when she worked as an unpaid White House in July 1995 — an internship which led to her “flirtatious encounters” with Clinton.
She was later confronted about the affair in January 1998 by FBI agents and Office of the Independent Counsel prosecutors after recorded conversations between Clinton and Lewinsky were revealed.
However, Clinton denied the allegations of an affair saying during a speech, “I did not have sexual relations with that woman, Ms. Lewinsky.”
In the docuseries, Lewinsky shares her stunned response to Clinton’s remark, Fox News reported.
“I was gutted,” Lewinsky said before continuing:
“I felt anger. I was hurt, having been called ‘that woman.’ But at the same time, there was a part of me that was glad he did that. Because I wanted him to deny it. I did not want him to lose his job. You know, it was impossible to imagine what was about to unfold.”
Lewinsky explained the backlash she received from people who “started to chip away at my integrity and my character.” She added that she was “crushed” by the media’s negativity toward her:
“There didn’t seem to be too much humanity … It just knifed me. But because I was under legal quarantine, I couldn’t even speak for myself.”
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“I had a handbag company, and I had some other projects,” Lewinsky also reportedly shared about trying to move past the affair scandal. “But eventually, that just wasn’t fulfilling me.”
“It’s a very long period of floundering and feeling unbelievably stuck in the old narrative of Monica Lewinsky that was created. It’s affected my family in a lot of really tough ways over the years … It was one of the aspects for which I felt really guilty about what happened. Because it also meant they could never escape it either.”
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“I never could have imagined the impact that this would have on others, on the presidency, on my life and of course, the country,” Lewinsky said. “Though my life has moved on in ways that I am incredibly grateful … the consequences and the pain that was caused was enormous.”
The docuseries about “The Clinton Affair” and how it all played out is set to premiere on November 18 on A&E.