Actress Billie Lourd remembered her mother — late actress Carrie Fisher — on the seventh anniversary of her death.
On Wednesday, Lourd, 31, posted a heartfelt tribute on her Instagram page.
“It has been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting?? Me I guess?) Every anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief,” she wrote.
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Lourd also got candid about how she’s been coping with her mother’s death throughout the years.
“Some infuse me with rage, some make me cry all day long, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all of those things all at once. This year when I woke up I felt grateful – or grieful if you will,” she continued.
Lourd, who is a mother of two, wrote about the comfort her children brought her as she mourned.
“Today I was holding my daughter while she was napping in my arms and my eyes welled up with tears of joy. I laughed at myself then cried more cause I was laughing,” she said.
The “American Horror Story” star continued, “I felt my mombys (sic) presence like the warmth of the sun on your skin on a hot summer day. The kind of warmth where you unknowingly close your eyes and take a slow breath through your nose and grin.”
“I miss her every day but the cliche is also true – she is with me every day – she infuses my joyful moments with even more joy. As I tell my son, she lives in the stars – and she damn sure makes my life sparkle,” she shared.
According to People, Fisher died on Dec. 27, 2016, after suffering a heart attack. The “Star Wars” actress was 60.
Fisher’s mother, actress Debbie Reynolds, died the next day.
