Jodie Sweetin, the ā€œFull Houseā€ alum, is recalling the moment her struggles with Addiction first took hold—at just 14 years old.

According to Fox News, on a recent episode of The Skinny Confidential podcast, the 43-year-old actress recounted blacking out for the first time at co-star Candace Cameron Bure’s wedding in 1996.

ā€œWell, the first time I ever drank, I was like 14, and it was at Candace’s wedding, and I was just a blackout drinker,ā€ Sweetin said. ā€œThe last thing I remember doing is somewhere around the ā€˜M’ of the ā€˜YMCA’ and then I don’t remember anything from the rest of the night. It was awful, and it was ugly, and it was embarrassing. My mother was horrified.ā€

She described drinking across the room from her mom as the wine kept coming. ā€œThey would pour a glass of wine… and then they’d get around to pouring more, and I was like, ā€˜I’ll take a little more, please.’ It was a lot of red wine, and the bathroom was very white.ā€

Despite her embarrassment, Sweetin said the experience sparked a dangerous curiosity. ā€œI was like, ā€˜Oh, that was fun.’ Around 15, 16, I knew that I drank and partied in a way that my friends did not,ā€ she admitted. ā€œI would be like, ā€˜OK, well, now I’ve got to go find somebody that I can do these drugs with.ā€™ā€

After Full House wrapped, Sweetin went through an identity crisis that drove her deeper into stimulants.

ā€œI was more Sober than anyone else in the room. I was looking for a way to make my brain work better,ā€ she said. She recognized early on the risks of her lifestyle: ā€œI knew for a very long time that I was heading down a road where it was either going to be jail, institutions, or death.ā€

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Her life shifted after getting married and discovering her first pregnancy. ā€œLike party time is done,ā€ she said. She achieved sobriety in 2008, ending 15 years of substance abuse.

Sweetin has since been vocal about mental health and Addiction.

ā€œHaving that wiring in your brain, something switches on when you’re an alcoholic. It feels like there is never enough,ā€ she explained. She stressed the ongoing work of recovery: ā€œA lot of it is really looking at yourself… how do I interact with people better? How do I hold myself to a higher standard?ā€

For Sweetin, therapy and medication have been crucial.

ā€œOtherwise, my struggle was so bad I wasn’t getting out of bed,ā€ she said, noting the importance of advocating for her own mental health even into adulthood.